I Am

     I want to make you feel things that you didn’t expect to feel - or maybe thrill you in an unsuspecting way. I want you to anticipate things from me I may not be able to deliver, but I still want you to come back to me time after time after time.
     I want to make you laugh from your belly the way you haven’t been able to do with other people, deep from within and heartily, a joke just between us (that I will share with anyone who asks).
     I want to make you think in new ways so as to broaden your vision, so we can connect better later on - delve back into things at an even more intense level.
     I want to make you cry, from your soul. I want tears to run hot and stinging from your eyes and curse me for it - then thank me.
     I want you to think of only me.
     I want wind to blow through your eyes and sunshine to gleam in your hair.
     I want pain blossoms to explode in your mind with sweet remembrances of sorrow.
     I want you to feel hot wastelands at the bottom of dark ice crevasses.
     I want you to fully relax in casual nakedness reclining on the daylight-warmed asphalt of the city.

     I want to be your pseudo-God and have you blindly worship me on joyous knees bloodied with my praise -

     No -

     I want to be your ONE AND ONLY God!

     I will work your mind like a puppet. I will twist it and turn it and make it hop around itself and trip over the furniture and hit itself with clubs. I will move the strings with my fingers both delicately and harshly - and perhaps make you falter - I can cut the strings if I wish . . .

     I will make you feel the heat in your groin and the ache in your heart and the fever in your mind - I can churn them together in any combination so as to make you crazy for the next - and the next - moan for me.

     I will make myself your only world for minutes or hours or even days, forgetting about your family, your life, everything else you care about.

     I will make you soar through the air screaming for sanity.

     I will make you weep with unending depression in a pool of sun-drenched darkness.

     I will turn your body inside out and wrap it in your tattered soul.

     I will make you giggle until you’ve washed yourself with tears.

     I will make you think so hard it hurts!



     I am -
     - a writer.